If you drink schnapps at 56 degrees below zero, be careful. Unless you warm it in your mouth before swallowing, you will burn your throat.
The advice came from my father as we stood, clad in thick winter gear, at a remote Alaska lake on a November night three decades ago.
We passed the bottle, took a few pulls, then the five of us — father, his friend, brother, my friend — climbed aboard snowmobiles and freight sleds and raced across lakes toward a cabin 16 miles away.
Above, the northern lights waved like marsh grass. Two herds of caribou loped across our path, a sight alone worth a trip back home to Alaska from New York.
Arriving at the one-room cabin after midnight, we built a fire in an oil drum stove. The temperature rose quickly to 88 degrees. We stripped to long johns and cracked a bottle of brandy and a deck of cards.
The next day we drilled dozens of holes in the ice and set lines to catch lingcod, the stated reason for a trip truly made so five men could sit in longies playing Pinochle during 18 hours of darkness each day.
That night, as my father cooked steaks, he overheard me talking about my love life in New York.
To be in your early 20s in Manhattan, you could have an endless rotation. To keep track, I made notes on 3-by-5 cards, a practice I began after I asked a woman I was dating, "How's your mother?" and she responded, "Still dead."
After dinner, my father spoke up. You can't even remember who they are? What's the point?
Uproarious fun, I said.
He didn't understand. He had gone from Great Depression farm boy straight into World War II, a corpsman for the Marines. After the war, he wanted to settle down. Dating was a way to get there. It wasn't recreation.
Those hormones driving you will fade, he said. Then what? No children, no wife. What will you have accomplished?
I didn't understand. Since when is accumulating family the only way to measure a life?
The next night, my father returned to the subject. He didn't say it explicitly, but he saw my behavior as an indulgence practiced by men untempered by the hard times that teach them to value home and hearth.
He did say he worried about me, fearful I would "wake up" too late in life.
I confessed that my hormones often kicked aside rational thought, and we left it at that. Over the years, until his death in 2006, he never again raised the subject.
Eventually, my life did change. I moved to Los Angeles and married. The birth of my daughter in 2009 brought strangely powerful feelings: to provide and to love — in a new and unbreakable way. And to worry. Always to worry. (My daughter is not going to be some 3-by-5 card.)
Lately, I've also had another thought, one rooted, oddly, in a recent book titled "Significant Objects." In it, writers demonstrate through EBay auctions that buyers will pay more for baubles if the listing includes a rich back story. Even a trinket is considered more valuable if it has a history.
I wonder: Is that also true of a life?
Recently I opened an old box in the garage and found photos of women from the New York years and after. I couldn't remember their names. Buried among the photos was a Bacarat heart the size of my palm. Who? I tried and tried but couldn't recall.