Jasmine Fiore and Ryan Alexander Jenkins

Jasmine Fiore and Ryan Alexander Jenkins

BUENA PARK -- Police say a reality show contestant suspected of killing his ex-wife before committing suicide left a suicide note on his laptop that expressed his love and frustration with the victim.

The body of 32-year-old Ryan Jenkins was found in a Canadian motel room in August.

Police believe Jenkins murdered his 28-year-old wife Jasmine Fiore, packed her disfigured body in a suitcase and left her in a trash bin in Southern California.

In the 1 1/2 page note, titled "My Last Will and Testament," Jenkins wrote that Fiore was the love of his life, but that he was resentful because he believed she was cheating on him, according to Buena Park police Sgt. Bill Kohanek.

"I would describe it as a suicide note," Kohanek said, adding Jenkins wrote it in the motel room where he was found hanged.

"He talked about how much he loved her and cherished her, but also how he disliked the things she did that ruined their marriage," Kohanek said.

Jenkins refers to her talking to a former boyfriend while Jenkins and Fiore shared a hotel room in San Diego. Authorities suspect Jenkins attacked her in that hotel room and killed her there or in her Mercedes-Benz.

In the note, Jenkins also apologizes to his family for causing trouble.

The note doesn't mention Fiore's death. Jenkins also does not discuss the escape to Canada or what he planned to do.

The note was written on August 20, the day Buena Park police held a widely publicized news conference naming Jenkins as the suspected killer.

Fiore's white Mercedes-Benz was discovered in West Hollywood, about a mile from the penthouse she shared with her aspiring actor husband.

Sgt. Roger Powell said investigators found blood splattered on the passenger seat, back seat and rear windshield.

Police say they also found some blood on the patio of a hotel room in San Diego, where they had gone for a charity poker tournament, so investigators may never determine where she was killed.

Surveillance video showed Jenkins checking out of the hotel alone and leaving the room three times with large armloads of clothes, police said.

Investigators suspect he emptied a suitcase to put Fiore's body in it.

A missing persons report filed by Jenkins Saturday, Aug. 15 claimed Fiore had disappeared the day before while running errands.

When asked to describe Fiore, Jenkins said she had "perfect teeth" and had just gone to get her nails done.

Fiore's badly beaten and nude body was discovered in a bloody suitcase inside a Buena Park dumpster August 15th.

Her teeth and fingertips had been removed.