When a 19-year-old University of Notre Dame freshman first went to campus police to file a sexual assault report in late November, she did so reluctantly and at her parents' urging.
Authorities complied with her request not to open an investigation, in part because she didn't want to draw attention to herself or risk angering the accused attacker and his friends by pursuing charges. He lived in a nearby dorm and his residence hall was the epicenter of her social life, too.
As part of a two-tiered justice system offered at colleges and universities nationwide, administrative hearings are designed to provide students with an alternative justice process that is less demanding than the legal system. Students can seek resolution through the administrative and police tracks simultaneously, though the internal process carries a lower burden of proof, meaning victims theoretically would have an easier time making their case at campus hearings.
Though victim advocates champion the hearings as an important way for students to seek justice, national statistics suggest women who opt for the internal process face disappointing outcomes nearly as often as those who go through law enforcement. They also can grapple with the same feelings of humiliation, frustration and loneliness endured by women who seek help from police and prosecutors.
In the Notre Dame case, the woman described the process as unresponsive and uncaring, complaints similar to the ones voiced by women who reported their crimes to police. She felt as if she were the one on trial, not the acquaintance she accused.
"It's the same thing, again and again," she said. "Girls are still getting victimized and guys are still walking away."
After a tense, two-hour administrative hearing in April, the panel of three administrators found the male student "not responsible" for the alleged offense. He told the Tribune that their interaction was consensual and that the case boiled down to his word against hers.
And he, too, described a grueling process in which he placed his future in the hands of university administrators and prayed they would make the right decision. He feared getting suspended or expelled.
"I wasn't able to sleep most nights," the male student said. "My entire career was up in the air with three people I didn't know. I was scared out of my mind."
Since the hearing, the female student continues to see a counselor, who she says initially warned her against filing an administrative complaint because the decisions rarely go in the woman's favor. She shudders when she runs into her alleged attacker on campus. Though he never says anything to her, she said, his friends once called her a "slut" and a "whore" when they passed her in a stairwell.
"I thought it would bring me some peace" to have the hearing, the female student told the Tribune last month. "In a lot of ways, it made things worse."
Notre Dame administrators hear about four cases involving sexual misconduct each year, university spokesman Dennis Brown said. He declined to say how many of the cases are decided in the woman's favor.
The Tribune has confirmed at least three hearings during the most recent school year. The panel ruled in the accused student's favor each time, a common outcome at colleges across the country, experts say.
"Notre Dame is well known for setting very high standards for its students," Brown said. "Whenever a student is accused of falling short of these high standards of conduct — whether an allegation of criminal behavior, a violation of the university code of conduct, or both — we institute a thorough, deliberate and thoughtful process to investigate and adjudicate the case in a timely manner, ensuring that both the complainant and accused student are given appropriate support."
Even in cases where the nation's universities find men "responsible" for sexual assault, they are rarely kicked out, according to a recent analysis by the Center for Public Integrity. Only 10 to 25 percent are permanently expelled, the study found.
The expulsion rates are in keeping with the arrest and conviction rates on the law-enforcement track, a Tribune analysis shows. After surveying six major Midwestern universities, the Tribune found that the schools made one arrest for about every 14 alleged sex crimes reported on campus. The conviction rate of those arrested was 33 percent.
Experts say the results — from both the law-enforcement and administrative tracks — reflect a system overseen by educators who, by nature, want to help students better themselves.
"Universities tend to view these cases as misbehavior, as teaching moments," said David Lisak, a psychologist at the University of Massachusetts' Boston campus and an expert on campus violence. "Two students have a conflict and this is how we handle the conflict rather than dealing with it as a criminal problem."